erm today will be the day I wont want to remember for the rest of my life. Didnt go to school today and many of my classmates called. When i finally answered, they told me I was barred from attending MICE lessons and my attendance wont be marked and in short, it means I wont be able to take my exams. I was very shocked but well i had it coming. I skip school as and when i like so I really should have no complains on this decision. But when i really sit down and think about it, this is not the way i want to live my life. I want to make it through to poly and get a stable job and settle down. So no matter what, i will try my best to ask my teacher to let me sit for the final exam be it studying myself or attend her lessons.
I know i have change alot during this 2 years, i know many people are disappointed in me and i would too if my friends were like me. I know i have to change before it is too late but sometimes laziness got the better of me. I promise i will try my best to change though i guess many have long given up on me. Even today when i talk to QQ, i could sense the disappointment in her. She told me what happened and whats causing me not to go to school when i was always on time and getting good results in NITEC. I didnt know how to reply, all i could muster were 'yup i know'.
I know people will be saying why cant you sleep earlier and get up on time for school, why not off the computer earlier and go to sleep? I dunno how to answer that as well.
Maybe people think i am just a lazy ass who cant get out of his bed in the morning but nobody knows whats actually going on inside me. There are so many things that even my closest friends knows, not even my gf, yongjie and caishan for all that it matters. I have no intention of telling anyone so go ahead and think what you like of me. I simply do not have the time and energy to entertain these kinda things anymore.
Anyway time flies and i am almost 21 years old, went to meet yongjie and caishan for some snacks and we sat down and chit chat a bit. I was asking them if i should sign on as a police officer since i am lagging so much behind other people and i can still study part time when i am inside. I ask my gf the same question as well but they all say it is all up to me. I am still very undecided, some people say its good cos you will have a stable income and job but other people say it is a no life job. i really dunno what to do now, i urgently need some advise!
I think i should sleep early tonight and see how things goes tml.
Hopefully my post tml will be a happy one =)
Tml will be a BETTER day!
Good night everyone!